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Poems
I Shall Not Care
When I am dead and over me bright April shakes out her rain, drenched hair though you lean above me brokenhearted I shall not care. I shall have peace. As the leafs of the trees are peaceful when the rain beet’s down the bough and I shall be more silent and cold hearted then you are now.
How Heavy the Days.
How heavy the days are. There is not a fire that can warm me, not a sun to laugh with, everything bare. Everything cold and merciless and when the beloved clear sky and stars look down I’ve learned that love can die.
Brown Penny
I whispered ” I am too young ” and then I am old enough wherefore I throw a penny to find out if i might love. Go and love, go and love young man, if the lady be young and fair. I am tangled in the loops of her hair; O love is a crooked thing. There is nobody wise enough to find out all that is in it; fore he would be thinking of love until the stars burn out. And the shadows eaten by the mornin light. Ah, brown penny one cannot begin it too soon.
Where Have You Gone
Where have you gone with your confident walk and your crooked smile, why did you leave when you took your laughter and departed, are you aware that with you went the sunlight and the stars above. Where have you gone with your cute lil laugh and your baby blue eyes, the rent money in one pocket and my heart in the other?
As I Cry
As I cry the rain falls faster, what would happen if i stopped, what would happen if i went away would i be missed… Does it rain because i cry or do i cry because it rain…
So Dam Much…
I Miss you so dam much. I want you so bad with me I can taste it. I feel your soul… it’s all around me, your with me all the time and always will be, you’ve taken the key to my heart the half to my whole. Baby with you it’s like floating on water cause i know you won’t let me drown. i can walk on clouds not worrying about falling cause i know you’ll be there to catch me, you are my wings that I’ve searching for my whole life, and i have found them in you our loves so strong, people look at us like wear in a fairy tale. And if you must question Know, This… the answer is and always will be I DO cause babygurl I Love you with all my heart, Body, Mind and Soul. You are my Soul Mate and I’ll never let you go… Promise.
I think of you
I Think of you when the rain falls I Think of you when the sky turns from orange to blue I Think of you when the sun sets of colors I Think of you when the ocean splashes against the rocks I Think of you when my feet are wet from sand I Think of you when the cool breeze runs down my spine I Think of you when the day begins and ends I Think of you when i close my eyes and dream, I Think of you…
I Sit Here
I sit here writing this letter telling all I can bare hoping someone will care; I sit alone writing my story. This letter is of sad tone it tells of people with hearts of stone, I sit alone in silence alone with my thoughts. I despise the silence it’s driving me mad and I sit and wonder am I loved then it comes in the form of thunder he’s coming to get me. He’s coming for my soul, my lonely heart. He speaks to me in a whisper, I sit in silence, and I sit in awe, staring at this monstrous beast. He leaves me there to return another day, as the silence falls I know he’ll return I’ll look out for him. Remember his words I sit here knowing no one will see this letter, this letter to no one…
This Is My Creed to You
I feel your torment I feel your pain to finally find a love that shall remain. The painstaking torture and searching is driving you to the edge of insanity. The empty desires aroused by the flames that burn down deep within your soul. The passion the engulfs your every waking moment. Waiting and watching yet staying so far away. Seek no longer. For you have found that which you have been looking for. May the fire of your passion lead us on a journey of ecstasy and bliss? Shall it burn brightly? Within each kiss, touch, bite, and pain I shall take into myself knowing that it is meant with passion and eroticism. To send me to knew heights. When fear sling’s it’s flaming arrows you have taught me how to take refuge within your friendship. Your voice with its gentle but firm tones has found away to reach through my layers of confusion helping me to believe within this lifestyle, helping me to face each morning without the pain of missing you. Through this process as it stands you have carefully guided me out of the darkness right into the warmth of the life you have to offer and for that, I will cherish you forever. You have made me feel safe and secure knowing that I have been lost but now found. You are truly my master for eternity. I will gladly give you all that I have, and yet still fall short, of what you have done for me!
In The Night
The sun it fades by the window she waits for the shadow that comes to fill her night. He comes on the wind during a cold winter’s night. His smile radiant, he eyes memorizing. His touch soft and gentle. He shall bath her with love, from the very first sight. So bright, he showed her the fire that burns through out his veins. He hid his fangs all to well. As her blood, he did lust. Her moans were soft, as his fangs they sank deep. The pulse of her jugular against his lips beat fast. He drank not with greed for his love runs deep. The heat of her blood seeping warmth down his throat brings him to life until the morning light. Like the darkness of night, he fades fast away as dawn fills her room. Alone she will wait until he comes once again like a mist in the dark to fill her with love from his gentle cold touch. Her blood he will drink to brink him new life. To fill him with warmth each night by the window she’ll wait, until the sun it does fade for her lover’s return, her undying devotion for him, shall never fade.
Past Forgotten
Glimpses of the ages past beckon and taunt my soul. Forever calling and reaching out, sultry hands through time they linger. So unmercifully daunting. They persist in this weary mind. Lost in an era and place. Imploring to find my way home. Into the darkest recesses of the night. They long to share their secrets. Embracing my every thought. Revealing distant memoirs. Whispering so softly. Reflecting y sorrow and anguish. Caresses like a lover solaced to my existence. For I was part of his world. His companion his anchor. I am the shadow of his night. I am the shadow of his dreams.
The Demon Within
Though my soul may be set in darkness, I shall use it in perfect light. I have loved the stars too fondly to fearful of the night. In every shadow there is light. In every tear, a smile. In death, I know there is still life that lingers for a while. In his face, the one with fear trace the one with the red eyes that one who refuses to really cry. The one with the blood all over the place. The one with the small smile on his face. The pleasures he partakes. A smile hidden behind the mask. A smile, one not to ask. A smile hidden in the heart, the one whom lives with a missing part. Only in the memories the red eye will soften, only past the mask can you see what is true. The mask of emptiness the mask of coldness. The mask as hard as gold. A dark mask for a dark heart. However, if you are enlightened enough and look beyond the red eyes, what you will see will make you cry. You will see an angel fly. You will see a wounded heart die, you will sea an angel behind a demon’s eye.
All my life
It was not so long ago when I thought I would never meet someone like you. Wrong was I, thinking I’m in control believing I’d never fall. All my life I thought no one would melt a heart like mine, a heart so cold, a heart hardened by the past, protected by shields so vast. Slowly I was falling Without even knowing. Only to find out too late I have no choice but to accept my fate. I could dream, I suppose forever, I could hope there will never be any ‘us’, that’s our destiny Therefore, I wake up to reality. I lied when I said I didn’t love you, that my feelings for you are through. I lied not because I wanted to but because I love, you and I still do. I wouldn’t do a thing to hurt you but I just have to let go. I can’t hold on much longer ‘cause for us there is no forever.
Millions of time
I have seen you a million times and every time I see you, I fall in love with you all over again My heart starts to race my frown turns into a smile and all my worries are now in my past When you smile at me my heart melts you give, the sweetest hugs Every time you hug me Your smile is like a new day your sense of humor is like no other the ability you have to make me smile is all you need you love me your laugh is so soft and sweet Just looking in your eyes Makes me melt inside Your lips look so soft, Soft enough to kiss You, yourself relive me from all pain Your hands are as soft as a pillow The way you comfort me is amazing Every time we say good-bye I start to cry I say good-bye to you too many times I said good-bye to you a million times.
A Blue Star in Your Eye
On the wings of an eagle, my love for you flies. Soaring higher and higher, and touching the skies. I reached up above, and pulled a star from the sky. To place it within, your precious minds eye. To dwell there forever, as my love for you. On the wings of our love, Enduring and true. I honor you my darling, with all that I am. Please darling please, Will you be my woman? There are so many things, my heart wants to say. I love you sweetheart, there is no other way.
Love Stories
A heart was broken, Cast aside as a useless token, slashed, mashed and torn asunder, Destroyed by one faithless blunder. Across a dark room eyes wander until gazes stuck, two souls brought together by fate and luck, Lustful thoughts at moments glance, Heart aflutter as I watch you dance. A breath of life gently blown into my stillborn chest, To awaken a love I would never have guessed, like a kiss of heaven brought on moon and stars, So unlikely with you from Venus and I from Mars. Oh, this passion burns me deep, with these pleasures I can never sleep, why waste to dream when my dream is real, for with your love my heart you did heal. Even if our souls are painfully apart, Without doubt you have my heart, this gift I give with latitude, to express my undying gratitude.
I love you baby….
I love America because America trusts me. When I go into a shop to buy a pair of shoes I am not asked to produce my Identity Card. I love it because my mail is not censored. My phone is not tapped. My conversation with friends is not reported to the secret police. To attract good fortune, spend a new coin on an old friend, share an old pleasure with a new friend, and lift up the heart of a true friend by writing his name on the wings of a dragon. A friend is one to whom one can pour out all the contents of one’s heart, chaff and grain together, knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keeping what is worth keeping, and, with the breath of kindness, blow the rest away. There are times when I think that the ideal library is composed solely of reference books. They are like understanding friends-always ready to meet your mood, always ready to change the subject when you have had enough of this or that.
Just a little something.
Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with soaking joy. However, sometimes, under the angry heart of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive.
Me…
There is no real me Only an entity Something illusionary And though i can hide my cold gaze And you can shake my hand And feel flesh griping yours And maybe you can even sense That our lifestyles are probably comparable I simply. Am not. There!
~Pass It On ~
Someone taught you how to love, and probably didn’t know it, and in return, with every day, it’s now you’re turn to show it. When you love, you give a gift, and when you’re gone, it stays, to be passed on by the ones you loved, to make someone Else’s day. So remember someone who loved you, and show how much you care, by sharing all the love they gave, with people everywhere. When you give away, your love that does not mean it’s gone. Love will last forever, so open up your heart … and pass it on.
Love
Love - the single force, which cannot be bought but is worth everything. Something some swear they can live without but we all know we would die happy with. It can hurt more than a knife but it has no blade, only a point. It is a force that can withstand death, it does not snap when it is stretched over distance, nor does time wear it down. It can be conveyed through a kiss, an embrace, any simple gesture, even an email. Love is all around us, you just can’t see it. To posses it you must do something very few dare to anymore, you must plunge yourself into the unknown, give it your heart and soul…and then, maybe, if you’re ever so lucky…someone else will be jumping in too.
Tell me what the rain knows
Oh, are these the Tears of Ages That wash away the Wolf’s Way And leave not a trace of the day? Tell me what the rain knows Oh is this the flood of fortune that pours itself upon me? Oh see how I drown in this sea Hark, hear the howl that eats the moon alive Your fur is on fire The smoke turns the whole sky raven black And the world upon your back will crack Where will you go Now you’ve no home? Let the rain wash away your last days.
Sorrow…
If there be sorrow, then let it be for things undone…
Undreamed, Unrealized, and Unattained, to these add one: Love
Withheld… Love Restrained.
Sorrow…
If there be sorrow,then let it be for things undone…
Undreamed,Unrealized,Unattained,To these add one: Love
withheld… Love Restrained.
Me…
There is no real me
Only an entity
Something illusionary
And though i can hide my cold gaze
And you can shake my hand
And feel flesh griping yours
And maybe you can even sense
That our lifestyles are probably comparable
I simply..am not..there!
So Dam Much…
I Miss you so dam much. I want you so bad with me i can taste it. I feel your soul… it’s all around me,your with me all the time and always will be, you’ve taken the key to my heart the half to my whole. Baby with you it’s like floating on water cause i know you won’t let me drown. i can walk on clouds not worring about falling cause i know you’ll be there to catch me, you are my wings that i’ve searching for my whole life,and i have found them in you our loves so strong,people look at us like wear in a fairy tale. and if you must question Know This… the answer is and always will be I DO cause babygurl I Love you with all my heart,Body,Mind and Soul. you are my SoulMate and i’ll never let you go… Promise.
Just a little something.
Love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with soaking joy. But sometimes, under the angry heart of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive.
I Love You Baby…
I love America because America trusts me. When I go into a shop to buy a pair of shoes I am not asked to produce my Identity Card. I love it because my mail is not censored. My phone is not tapped. My conversation with friends is not reported to the secret police.
To attract good fortune, spend a new coin on an old friend, share an old pleasure with a new friend, and lift up the heart of a true friend by writing his name on the wings of a dragon.
A friend is one to whom one can pour out all the contents of one’s heart, chaff and grain together, knowing that the gentlest of hands will take and sift it, keeping what is worth keeping, and, with the breath of kindness, blow the rest away.
There are times when I think that the ideal library is composed solely of reference books. They are like understanding friends-always ready to meet your mood, always ready to change the subject when you have had enough of this or that.
Love Stories
There once was a heart that was broken,
Cast aside as a useless token,
Slashed, mashed and torn asunder,
Destroyed by one faithless blunder.
Across a dark room eyes wander until gazes stuck,
Two souls brought together by fate and luck,
Lustful thoughts at moments glance,
Heart aflutter as I watch you dance.
A breath of life gently blown into my stillborn chest,
To awaken a love I would never have guessed,
Like a kiss of heaven brought on moon and stars,
So unlikely with you from Venus and I from Mars.
Oh, this passion burns me deep,
With these pleasures I can never sleep,
Why waste to dream when my dream is real,
For with your love my heart you did heal.
Even if our souls are painfully apart,
Without doubt you have my heart,
This gift I give with latitude,
To express my undying gratitude.